I’ve found this girl. Once, she was a sweetheart. Pretty and brilliant, she’s the candy of the eyes for everyone around her. Nothing can goes wrong with her life. A happy family and with so many great friends. Done high school excellently, with a scholarship to the university. Though it was pretty hard for her to achieved that, but she made it. Not to forget, her faith to God was the best in her family. She knows God loves her. For sometimes, her life’s was perfect!
Sunshine did not last forever. Darkness coming through the night. And it was a very long, cold and fearful night. She can’t find her way through the darkness. Her life’s in mess! Turned upside down, she tried reversing her life, and she knew it was impossible! Gone! Everything’s gone. With nothing to hold, she found herself alone, helplessly and hopeless! With so many people around the darkness, she does not know to whom shall she ask for help. FAMILY and FRIENDS, no one can understand her inner complex. LOVE. Once, she really loves him. Waiting for him with hope that one day he can see her the way she saw him. And when she tried to cling on him, for protection or at least to grab some support, he went away. She cries a lot. And sometimes she cried with no tears. She’s hurt and with too much things to handle she found herself ‘CRAZY’. She did have the thought of SUICIDE as dead is not the worst thing that can happen to her. She’s not pretty and brilliant as before. UGLY and STUPID, that’s what her thought of herself. And God does not love her any more. With lack of motivation, she fell and fell more deep than before.
Still in the darkness, she tried to find her way out. She missed the warmness of daylight. She’s tired and want to have some good rest. But, things getting worst and once again she realised, everything that she do will only makes her life doomed. Giving up is not her forte anyway. So she tried again and again. Along her journey to the end of the darkness, she found someone. Her soul-mate if she can say that! He’s not the cool guy that she ever want, far from richness and he’s not good enough in studying. Watching him swimming and diving inside the water, makes her smile. Her adrenalin rushed each time he smiled. And thus she knew, she fell for him. Love bloomed but with so much differences, can they survived this harsh world?
Giving up? No! She might be in her worst time of her life, she might be hurt, she might be not the pretty girl any more because now, she’s a woman. She fall from grace and this is the time for her to stand again. Resurrect and revive herself. She might have done so many sins, but God always open His door. She have another one semester to finish up her degree and she have the plan to continue with the second degree. She have that in her mind. She have a family that need to be save with God help, she need that so much. She still have her good friends that she need to appreciate, they might not understand her much, but they have gone through so many things together. And she have him. With no uncertainty of their fates, she put her faith again to God. Only Him can decide what will happen to her life. She want to see the sunshine again, and realised that only God can help her. So, she find her way back to God, as that is the only way for her to breath again and coming out from the darkness.
Today, that pretty and brilliant girl has turned into a woman. With so much difficulties in her life, she survived and still alive. She will fall again. No doubt! But her spirits shall help her to rise again. She will never stop crying but someone will help her to dry the tears. She will make it! She will! And one day, when she look back, she’ll find herself smiling brightly for she have passed the darkness and she will fear nothing! And to the pretty and brilliant girl, she’ll gave her biggest thank!
And today, I’m glad that I’m alive and I know that I’m heading toward the end of the darkness!
WITH SUZE 